Hello ppl..finally i'm back to updating my blog alrdy...the last post was like 07 stuff...nw abt 08 stuff...still in the army...half way more to go...currently hving a major event ...NDP 08...i'm involving for the parade...will be wearing no. 1 suit...look damn cool...yea..tt's wat i felt oso la..hving started training of drills...since may...all the way till aug...ahhhh 3 mths of training b4 actual parade...shaggggggggggggg~ hehe! but enjoyed it quite alot...perhaps after tis post...i'll onli be back updating tis blog some other time alrdy...hw long will u guys & girls get to see ..i not tt sure ~ hahahAhAHa~ ok la...it's time to slp...i'm still doing fine...miss u ppl!!
Someone very close to me is feeling down today. Though I dun really noe wat happened, but, am able to feel it. Tis little sun here has no clues and the brightness she has is running short too. Hoping for a re-charge, sun needs it’s creator to b with her too. To lend her a listening ear sometimes. Sun promised to always b there for it’s creator. It’s weather maker. Hope the creator will put on a small smile, jus to give the sun a bit of courage to face life. (:
This is what my sun wanna let mi noe wat she's tinking of...i appreciate it...thanks android18..i'll promise myself hard to be ur listening ears. i'll cheer up more juz for u! becoz u're my sun..u brighten mi up..u lighten my life..i'll help u to find the courage to face life.......u'll be recharged by mi!!! becoz i'm oso ur weather... thx for all tis tings...ever since i enlisted in army..the closest person i can depend on is u...u did alot for mi...i can feel it...i understand it! so i wun let u down...always the happy jumpy krillin u'll see....misses ~ ~ ~ ~
finally back to my blog le...2 mths passed in army le...i'm still me..just tt i grown more like learning hw to tink & act more positively le...i gained alot in army, oso gained the lost of somebody i loved...i'm so so so unhappy...so so so sad....but slowly army taught me hw to take & let go...i'm feeling better le...i'm feeling so weird nw...i felt i'm a WEIRDO!...i tink i got Six Sense!!! hahahaha...realli treasure the time wif my si dang(gang)...they r so so so nicee...without them...life's simply blank...thanks to my sis(angie), bro(wc,wq), alice(android18)...i love them all!!! hahahaa....there's once a man told me i'm destined to be lonely...to be single for life...hving stress & stress in my life...but able to be strong & still...i'm so afraid of loneliness, i wish i could hv a partner...to share my joy...to share my wealth...to share my pain...inside of me is such a weak, helpless boy...wat i realli want is to be able to enjoy life...with the one i love so much....hv u loved mi once? even if u hv...it's all in the past...i'm born to serve 'loneliness'....anyone, love me pls??? y did u left me when i needed u most................................
I lost myself, my spirit, my everything. Even my little smile flew away so quickly. Just because i went in army, everything will change. I change, you change, all change. depression is getting onto my head so quickly, now as i have a clearer state of myself, i will make this post my last, I gave in so much, i didnt expected to have any returns, but i expected not to be abandoned a side as well, in the past, your smile, your laugh, your happiness, is equivelent to my own happiness. It doesnt even matter whether i am the one suffering in the end, as long as you are happy, i am contented. You may change, it may be very painful to me, but for you it's worth it. There's alot of things i didnt want to be. My dream is to be by your side for life, my hope is to be the one you will depend on, though it didnt end up the way i wanted. I cant do anything about it. As now i am on the verge of dying, i cant take anymore stress even in army and outside. But i promised my bros, my frens, i will perseverve on. As for you, i wish you happy. Until now, i can feel the REAL stress, sadness, disappointment i having. At times i dont even know what i am doing at all, i might need to attend mentality checkup. Doesnt matter. All of this, done for you, is worth it. My painfulness text.
This gonna be my final entry liao...after today..which is 14th sept 07. I am going to be enlisted into National Service. Definitely gonna MISS alot of ppl...especially 6.4 ! WC undead, WQ halfdead, ANGIE pig, DON oduck and last not to least, PEIYING piggy =). And of coz, Alice from RP. SANDY aka P.G. My bros, Guorong, Simon, Douglas. My ITE mates...and all the frens i noe...MISS ALL OF YOU...1 main worry is py piggy, doesnt noe hw to take gd care of herself, always emo when bad tings happened and nid a person to tok to, but after i go in, cant be able to help out in her probs much, she's like the best & closest person i ever known in life liao...ok nw..hope all of u can take gd care of urself...& pls...6.4 grp! miss mi hahahahaha. take gd care of each other man...when i book out..we shall meet up for a long talk! SAYONARA~
silence every moment. image of you every sec. eye opened with u in it. eye closed together wif u. hope u can sense the tings i've done. for i am always here protecting u. i can gif u watever u wan. i will try to make watever i can to make u happy. u're my life..u're my light..wif u ard.. any weather can brings mi warmness inside. i juz nid u to be by my side. becoz i noe u're the one i ever hoped for..
wow after so many mths. decided to touch tis useless blog again. hahahaha. recently alot of ppl fell sick. dun understand y oso. as for me. i fell sick twice in 3 mths. & dunno y...my nose hv been bleeding for days.. perhaps watch too much **** liao.. HAHAHAHA. jk la...but dunno y really... or maybe becoz of smoking lo. hais~ i'm getting hungry nw..but lazy to cook nor eat...simply tired all over...ytd went to watch fireworks at marina area..looks nice..but waited almost 30 mins b4 the COOL ting pops out ~ ~ ... b4 the fireworks...went to xin wang hongkong cafe wif my fellow 6.4 frens..it was funny..joke all the way...ate & laugh..& even the heaven is helping me.. hahaha. time for billing the meal, i paid exactly i tink, but dunno y the guy gave mi back $10 change more.. hahahahaha. at last, went for supper, becoz didnt ate much at the cafe.. but during the supper. i ate only 2-3 mouth of noodles...dunno y.. gastric veri painful.. hahah..send 2 girls home after tt. 1 pig 1 angelica. cool nick for them huh. hahahahaha ~ ~ ~ & as for today...work up damn early..went to work.. finish at abt 4.45pm. reached home almost 5. went out at abt 8.10pm. slack & eat & drink & smoke & tok cock ard..ahhh i'm lifeless really...last & for all.. i'm tinking of her.. hais...bu hui you jie guo de jie guo ~ ~ ~ ~
