when i made the 1st move, i knew i regret, but regretting is not a way to solve, so i decided to remove everyting out of my life & reinstall back slowly. I may not be my usual self now, precisely, i'm having alot of probs in my mind. I chosen not to tink abt it. not to tink of "why wasnt i given any chances." I know i dont hv to tink abt it, becoz the answer is obvious, i'm a piece of junk. Just an plain idiot u see on the street. What's more, i wont even tink abt all the sweet stuff anymore. It wasnt sweet anymore. I need alot of time to regain self consciousness. I hope i can revert back to myself. Life's bitter to me. I got nth in the end. In return. HeartAche.
Find Me Here Speak To Me I want to feel you I need to hear you You are the light That's leading me To the place where I find peace again. You are the strength, that keeps me walking. You are the hope, that keeps me trusting. You are the light to my soul. You are my purpose...you're everything. How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you? Would you tell me how could it be any better than this? You calm the storms, and you give me rest. You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall. You steal my heart, and you take my breath away. Would you take me in? Take me deeper now? How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you? Would you tell me how could it be any better than this? And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you? Would you tell me how could it be any better than this? Cause you're all I want, You're all I need You're everything,everything You're all I want you're all I need You're everything, everything. You're all I want you're all I need. You're everything, everything You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything. And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you? Would you tell me how could it be any better than this? How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you? Would you tell me how could it be any better than this? How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?Would you tell me how could it be any better than this? Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
today is a total bored day. i got no work. i went out. back home after a few hrs. doing nth at home. I'm matching wif them. it's was fun. everyting started to improve well. i hope i can get thru tis. but i aint trying it at all. i juz left it bothering mi until nw. i hate those feels. whenever i hope for smth, it wun come true. i wonder is tt a punishment from god ? i'm a big SINNER. pls.. tell mi am i one ? god, i wanna hv a answer to it. i'm willing to repent. gif mi courage to over come everyting. i love u god..
I've been thinking of it too often. Just dunno y i'm taking u as a veri impt person. perhaps i shld clear a distance from u. love is smth tt cant be forced. i aint one of the lucky guy. i purely understand tis well. as long as u're happy, i wun wanna ask for more. I'll find ways to forget it. heartached. suddenly, i dun wish to rmbr all the words made by u. what i can say is, u're loving mi as a close fren as well. so tt repeats again. all the unwanted words i dun wanna see nor hear it. ended up saying it all out. I must not misunderstand all tis words again. never will i going to fall for it. All the best to you.
星星有星星的时间，人也有人的时间,说如同大部分行星都有自己的旋转周期一样，人也有固定的周期，2500万年。现在起的2500万年之后，我们会再次经历此刻的瞬间，再次碰到相遇过的人。
hw do i start wif today's entry? well..everyting seems fine for mi..last night..or shld i say tis morning ? i did smth which i dare not in tis period of 3 yrs +...i confessed my love towards a girl...but the results is expected...to tink i failed again...tis is going to be the final decision of my life to be lonely for long...my fate is to be wif only MYSELF. so it's really ok not to tink so much...at least she doesnt hate mi or wat...i'll slap myself up...wake myself up...nobody will wanna be wif a uneducated, gangster looking wif a idiotic brain toking rubbish...i'll slap myself for sure.. for...falling in a impossible ting....LEX WAKE UP!!!!! YOU ARE GAMED!!!!!!!!!!!
LEX : i will wake up. just nidda have some time.
LEX'S HEART : yup you really nid some time to calm down again.
LEX : yes...ok..i will .. thanks HEART.
nth much to say...juz tt i coughed out blood last night...real thick blood...it seems tt the blood in my throat cant be stopped...onli until today...i'm stunned by the blood tt i coughed out...damn..wat's happening?
I've been tinking...wat for blogging like hell & den onli 1 loyal viewer Miss Sandy viewing it ???? At times i really wanna del tis blog awy...pretty pissed off..not as if ppl doesnt hv my link to it...not as if i didnt update it..& my tagboard...is like..1 to 1 chat onli..where's all the ppl tt linked mi? i hate it...after so many tings happened...i seriously feeling tired...i'm all ALONE !!!! who really noes ? I done smth convenient for u guys alrdy.. by removing the password tingy to my blog...& den it's still the same... shit it man...nobody really care...i dun wanna noe if i'm in any of their hearts...i wan actions. it's onli words & words...& i had enough...leave mi alone if tis continues... thanks to my bros... bros for life ...
