quarrelled......hai ~ still as usual after work...been really exhausted..went home..use com...went out wif gr & d for dinner...chatted alot ... joked alot..ate mcdonalds.. it was cool! hahahaha ! gr went to buy his 1st hair spray of the year.. LoLZ! hmm, quite bored now... nth to write..hope miracle do happens on me ~ sian sian ~
reached home at abt 12am. it's a long & tiring day after all my work... !!!! guess tml i'll hv muscleache...cut my foot today lolz!!! but not too bad ba ~ while working, i will rmbr how she acc me...thru smsing ... to tink of it, i felt i am fortunate...now i realise it cant be 4eva.. haisS~ tings changed...but it's ok i will move forward to the future de...thx everybody for been such a gd fren towards me!
today on my way back home...i dunno if i see the wrong person..i tink i saw her ~ alone waiting for a bus...i stand there starring for a moment...but i am not sure! i hope is her...i juz wanna see her once more...rmbring the old memories while walking, i could not stop feeling upset...while listening to my mp3..i kept on tinking if i shld sms her.. :'( ~ going work after writing tis post le ba ~ take care guys... :(
until now, i still cant really forget ... i noe it's smth negative for me, but it's my mind & heart tt keep on tinking abt it..i am sad, really felt like hving a gd cry ~ confiding to somebody ~ my life's not wat i wan ~ i noe i am born tis way ~ i am born here to face all the probs, juz alone me how to face it ? when i hope tt i can see ur smile again ~ i cried, when i hope i can hear ur voice again, i am upset..i nid love & concern too ~ until now u nv be able to gif me a proper reason for leaving me..it's all unacceptable !!! it's so unfair to me..i wan to forget u! i really wan ! but how? fall for other gers ? i am afraid to experience all tis.. i dun hv much time to waste le ~ soon time will flies, the world will be different..becoz i wun be existing anymore le..my tears hv been dropping every sec the day u left... really sad ~
as usual, thought of mimi haha ~ looking at my doggie bonbon, his expressions remind me of the sad memories hidden inside me, i am confuse all over now..i got alot of unhappiness, but i nv really wanna say all out ... becoz it's pointless, i'm afraid to fall for another ger ~ 3mths + since she left me, but i still can rmbr the pains & sorrow i had..i will forget her thoroughly, undergoing for a real big decision tt may change my life..i felt so lonely nowadays ~ my hp is quiet, my home tel is quiet, my mind is quiet too ~ dun really wish to attend sch anymore..but i told myself i have to go on ! becoz i can do it..juz 1 more year +! i tried everyting out of my best~ but i juz could not suceed in doing them. i am missing her, alot alot..if there's a ger tt can change my life ~ i will promise myself tt i will treasure her well..i will do best in everyting i can ... life's really stressed me up. if there's no such ting as love, probs.... how great it can be to me .. soon my time gonna be up! i gotta tink carefully.... real careful... wif a tear everynite b4 my slp ....
Last sat nite, staying late out wif gr, after leaving d's hse...chat quite a no. of hrs..saying our own stories & probs...feeling kinda cool chatting wif xiong di at such a time for so long...time passes like abt 5am+, strange tings beginning to happen..i saw white figure flying ard all over the place of gr's blk downstrs...gr said he see nth, feel nth..but after a moment later he could feel smth was strange too...i decided to walk home ~ he acc me too..becoz he's worried for me..i am shivering seriously ...it's kinda cold...i saw tis lao ah pek sitting on a strcase after some walk wif gr..he looks strange, so i ask gr whether he got see tis strange ah pek anot.. the 1st reply he gave me was "NO"..... i am shocked...i asked again & again to confirm! until gr decided to use my hp to take picture for me to see! omg..i couldn't believe wat i saw...it was smth tt i wun wan to see! omg ~ damn it...carry on walking, another strcase at the blk bside, i saw tt ah pek again~ damn it i am really getting colder & shivering...leg weakened.. gr told me not to see those strcase..i tried..until 1-2 mins later there's a bicycle riding towards us..omg wat i saw ?! it was the same ah pek tt i saw on the strcase..he juz ride past me!!!!!! ahhh..tis time gr saw it too.. he find his face kinda strange...omg..we keep on walking dun wish to see much ~ until i almost reach my blk i saw 2 flights of strcase in a eye...there's 2 of the same ah pek! oh gosh~..5.30am++ gr took lift wif me to my hse.. the lift door opened at 6th lvl..of my blk..tt ah pek was sitting down at the strcase tis time..i nid to use the strs!! oh shit..i nearly faint..really weakened..but gr tell me juz walk & dun look..ok i walk fast .. but tt ah pek was looking at me omg! i reached my doorstep..quickly open up the door & lock it wif all the locks!!!! i called gr after tt, he told me tt the lift door was acting strange..he close it but it opened up ... he feel kinda cold suddenly~ he knew there's smth beside in the lift wif him. it was foloing him all along ~ until he reach his blk lift.. thx god ! nth happened...
