it's 3.07pm nw. finally i am up wif my blog. 1st of july is getting closer. i nid to prepare myself to give in my best ! last nite. team AG9! which is my team. had quite alot of training. like training wif team KsM! the newly formed team. 2 out of 3 is a victory for us. :) after that, i went to lie down on my bed. chatting wif fren on phone. tok alot of craps. until abt 2.43am like that. i hang up. I kept on asking myself. y did i fall for her ? issit a starting of a wound ? will i get hurt becoz she will nv be mine ? nw i realise tis imptly. i wan her to be happy..as for all tis... she doesnt hv to noe ... she will be just fine wif him. they're compatible. so i shld'nt interfere into it. I will just be silent to myself & will be looking after of her in the dark . as long as she's happy....i feel ease... hope my feelings will fade soon ba ... hope i doesnt hv to get myself into sufferings.
fucked up blogger.com, tried to update ytd nite at 11pm + but it was too lag to load. so well back from sch nw.. updating it at 5.29pm. well recently..i am moody...becoz of ? well if u shld noe.. i dunno.. i feel as if we got an obstacles blocked by a wall. i felt sad...normally at nite...i simply <3 u alot. juz one smile from u..it can lighten up my day my nite. i really hope tings will remain...when i had no where to turn to..i can only turn to my blog..therefore..u guys shld noe..when i am moody or happy. tis is the place where i will read out my feelings. i am hving headaches alot.. hope to quit my course. rest awhile. b4 i go to NS . but i noe, i hv to keep my words. so i must perserve. i'll try a little harder.. i tink i shld cut down smoking by nw. it's harmful.. i shld really do it.. cut down little by little.. nowadays..i am really cutting down le.. competition is going on. quite stress. got to find time for training wif my team. hope to win tis week's round 3. tt's the only ting i'll be happier for nw.. guess i really shld go rest le..keeping myself locked up in a little dark room. only u can open the dark room for mi..so i'll just wait in there. b4 i really open up the door for anybody.. take care ppl. i'll update more. when i got more tings to add on.
